When the Future Rearranges the Past
Mar 16, 2026
There is something that therapy, knowing our stories and patterns, doesn’t fully reach.
The knowing is useful. But knowing is not the same as moving. And it is the movement that changes us.
I felt this recently on a trip to Vancouver.
At one moment I found myself standing beneath an old forest that somehow felt completely new, holding back a few quiet, leaky tears as an old memory of vulnerability surfaced.
The trip itself was about a generative exchange. A friend and I were supporting each other as we build the next phases of our work.
But what surprised me was this: as I stepped into something new, the old things showed up too.
Edges of capacity. Edges of knowing. Places where I've had clever workarounds instead of deeper healing.
And I realized something. This moment wasn't really about the story of my past. It was about feeling what was emerging as I make my next thing.
My dad passed away many years ago, but last summer during a move I came across a birthday card he gave me when I was seventeen. Inside he wrote:
"We all know that the past affects our future, but if you are lucky your future can also affect your past."
I find myself thinking about that line a lot lately.
Because as I lean into building something new, it feels like the future I am making is rearranging the past within me. Not through analysis.
Through making.
The more I notice this, the more curious I become about the forces that move us forward.
I'm often less interested in how someone moves than in what moves them. The body, thankfully, carries clues to both.
This is also at the heart of the coaching work I do with people these days. Paying attention to the places where something alive is trying to move through us, often through the things we feel called to create.
Art. Families. Books. Bread. Businesses. Lives that feel alive.
And in the making, something inside us shifts.
So I am beginning something new.
I am creating a podcast called What We Make, Makes Us, a series of conversations about the mysterious alchemy between creation and healing, and how the things we make reshape us.
I hope it can be a space to reflect, to witness, and to be moved by the ways making, whether art, work, relationships, or even small acts of care, can transform our being and our bodies.
To make room for the podcast project, I'll be stepping back from social media for a while. Episodes will be shared first, close-in, through my newsletter.
If you'd like to listen when it begins, you can join us here.
More soon.
But I'm curious about you.
What are you making right now that is also quietly making you?
It could be something small or something big. A project. A change. A risk. A practice. A life shift. If you feel like sharing, I would love to hear.
With love,
Erin
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